identity crisis

yeah, that's what i feel like i'm going through

identity crisis

definitely thought I knew who I was and who I wanted to grow up to become. I thought I remembered who God was and who He is to me and who I am to Him. God is speaking to me now, telling me who He is. I heard once that when we learn who He is, we see who we are because we are a reflection of Him.

I was depressed the other day, so I decided to read my bible (smart idea, huh?) I asked God what I should read. I thought He said Isaiah 49:11. Well, I thought, I'll try it, but I probably just thought of that because it close to Jeremiah 49:11. But I still felt that I should open up my bible to Isaiah. So I did. On the way there, my eyes fell to Isaiah 43. I stayed there for the rest of the time. Here I am, asking God who am I, what am I doing, what is wrong with me, what do You need to work on. Isaiah 43 is all about how God is our only Savior. He says I have called you by My name, and you are Mine. Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for your life (Jesus maybe?). You are my witnesses and my servant whom I have chosen so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am He. Before me no god was formed, nor will there be one after me. I, even I, am the Lord, and apart from me there is no savior. I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more.

Wow. I sit down, waiting for God to forcefully pull me apart and hurt me, and He does exactly the opposite. He tells me that He remembers my sin no longer. He tells me He loves me. He tells me I was created to bring Him glory. He tells me that He gave me His Son because He loves me and He wanted my life to be saved.

That's the solution to my identity crisis. I am His sister, His bride. I have ravished His heart. I am His daughter, loved beyond reason. Loved with a love that surpasses knowledge. That's the solution, but now I need to get it from my head to my heart.