depressing...

Well, my day did NOT get better. I felt lonely, forgotten, trapped, and frustrated. It sucked to walk into a party with one of my best friends and see a group of guys that I *thought* I was friends with and they shout my friend's name. They proceed to treat me as though I did not exist. Bastards. Previously at work I had to deal with a bunch of crap and become the bad guy in the situation. I cried all the way home because I couldn't handle all my coworkers shit. I'm tired of punk high school kids who think it's okay to drink and drive, or come in to the pool high. I'm tired of being put in the middle of things only to find out I didn't need to be....long story.

I'm sick and tired of these depressing days I've been having. I need to get away. Maybe I need a weekend a month to just go. Last month was disneyland. November won't be nearly as exciting, but I need to get away. Even if I just went to a hotel on the beach. Or took a yakima trip to hang out with chelsea, austyn, kathryn, and jaylene. yeah, I think that's what I'll do. But I always say it and never do it. Things always get in the way and pile up.

ugh