i like oatmeal cookes...without the raisins!

I think I'm in love

.sigh.

after 10 years, and no chance you'd think I'd be over it

I wish I could marry him

and have his kids....cause they'd be super cute

I'm such a girl

I miss my LA friends

I want to see Samuel's hair

and Eddie's hair

I feel like I've missed out

but at the same time, this is where God wants me

but I'm struggling

I wish it were easy

I wish I could just go to an amazing church service and decide that I want to go there

instead of PSCC

the service tonight at Impact was great

Greg Mira basically repeated everything that we've been saying in our desperation times

But there was a reason my parents left that church

Now I just have to figure out if I agree with my parents descision

Or if I want to go back

I like the people there

It was good to see them again

but do I want to be submitted to that authority?

I don't know

Is it where God wants me?

I don't know

Is PSCC where God wants me?

I don't know

I was talking with my parents

I love their advice.

but I said that all I want to do is just get married, and have kids

I don't want to make descisions just for myself anymore

I want to make descisions with my husband for us and our kids

I want to stay at home and just be a mom

Now if at least 1 of the endless amounts of guys that I would marry would realize that I'm AMAZING (and humble, haha)

then I would be married in a heartbeat!

~*~HELLO~*~