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There are so many layers of life. There's different spheres that you walk in. But sometimes circumstances permeate them all.

I debated on whether or not to write this on an internet blog for all to see. It may be extremely vague, but if you have questions, ask me....

The anger I have recently displayed to a friend I just realized is wrong. There is nothing to exuse it, but there is a reason for it. This certain circumstance overshadows my life right now, pulling me down. I don't know how long I can take this. The wondering, the waiting. When will it finally happen? When will the grief end? Will running away make it easier or should I be around more? How will I deal with death of loved one? It'll happen someday. The "when" is the worst though.

So do I ask people to allow me to be a bitch? Do I ask that you let me let my grief out in unconventional ways? Do I ask to be left alone? I don't know. What I DO know is I'm emotionally exhausted and physically exhausted. I don't know how much more of this I can take.