my life is a contiunal circle!

what happened?

I used to be so secure
I realized at the christmas party that I'm not anymore

I was dressed up

but I felt like crap

Someone said "wow, you're not wearing jeans"

and I realized that my every day wear for awhile has been jeans and a sweatshirt

with a few varities

but then I thought "why do I care?"

day in and day out, I don't wear makeup, I don't dress up, I don't work hours on my hair

and I'm self confident

The day I dress up, I feel like I'm the lowest person on earth

why is that?

yep, that's me, oximoron

basically I'm a jumble of mixed feelings because I have had (on average) 4 or 5 hours of sleep every night for the past week

and my brain is not working right now

and I have to be up tomorrow at 6:30

it pretty much rocks my socks off

whoever's reading this, have a great day!