continuing on, piecing the puzzle together

I have come to some realizations. I'm not sure how to explain them though. One of them is that I can have a relationship with God without depending fully on other people. I think church had become *too* important in my life. I wasn't taking my relationship with God seriously; I was taking my relationship with church seriously. I don't need to wait until I can talk to someone about my problems. The only One that matters is listening all the time, 24/7. I had the best day today because I was stressed out yesterday and I spent time with Him. He spoke to me. Even when I felt I couldn't believe anything He said. He still spoke. And I still listened. And then I slowly found myself believing. There's no reason I did. I just did because I *knew* He was telling the truth. There's no reason I can say that. I just can.

It's truly crazy. But I've decided that I will be a fool for Him all because He asked me to. He came and made a fool of Himself for me. He deserves the same from me.