Being 19 again

I had a good discussion with a trusted advisor. I like when I process things outloud to people I trust. I like hearing things that are hard but I need to hear them. I like talking to people who actually believe in me and want the best for me.

I realized that I am being an immature, irresponsible adult. I also realized I don't want to be that way. I've been an adult since I was 16, taking care of kids, being completely responsible because I HAD to. Now I'm in a place that I don't HAVE to be responsible. So I kinda went crazy. Now I know that I'm ready to grow up and stop being 19. But I kind of have to take a couple deep breaths before I really take that step. It's hard to be responsible. But it's something that *has* to be done.

...breath...
...breath...
...breath...

I have one more crazy planned. Then I'll calm down. I promise