He is bigger than my problems will ever be

I realized something about myself today. I'm not doing as well as I thought I was. I knew I wasn't doing well, but I realize now I'm doing worse. Being depressed hurts a lot. and when you self medicate it makes it worse. I knew that already and I did it anyway. I knew it wasn't going to solve my problems but it sure did make them go away for a couple hours. But the problems hid, feeding off the self medication in silence and secrecy. Once the effects faded, the problems came back out, ready to torment me.

I'm bigger than those problems will ever be
Why would I choose to make such a stupid decision? Why don't I remember that You are totally in control of my problems and will take care of them? I know that in my mind....I don't yet know that in my heart. How does it get there?
Prayer. Fasting. I will give you direction but there's too much of you in the way.
Yeah. You told me that yesterday and I chose to run the other direction instead of following You. Starting today, I make the choice. I'm going to turn the other direction and run as fast as I can towards what You want me to do. And I will fast and pray to know that direction. Starting today.
My mercies are new every morning. Today is no different.

my anthem

Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away

Everything that you've always dreamed of

Close enough that you can taste

But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

You wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you're getting all kind impatient, waiting

We live and we learn to take...

[Chorus]

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

You believe and you doubt

You're confused and got it all figured out

Everything that you've always wished for

Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours

If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
You wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you're getting all kind impatient, waiting

We live and we learn to take...

[Chorus]

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

When you can't wait any longer

But there's no end in sight

(When you need to find the strength)

It's your faith that makes you stronger

The only we get there is one step at a time

[Chorus]

Take one step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time